Well...I didn't complete the 7 in 7 challenge. I missed yesterday but with good reason. Whatever was plaguing James last week has now made it's way over to Peter. Two nights ago the poor guy started a fever of 104 and he has been fighting it ever since. I was pretty bummed about not making the challenge. When I start something I finish it no matter what it takes. However, yesterday around noon I waved the white flag. I mean it's just blogging after all. Not a big deal. Obviously there were more important things to take of. While I keep telling myself all that...I'm left with a big realization about motherhood.
You can't plan it. All my scheduling, note taking and to-do lists, do not guarantee smooth sailing. Last weekend we were supposed to go to two baptisms and I couldn't go to either because of James. All week I had been looking forward to getting out of the house, putting on real clothes, and talking with adults. Unfortunately the flu foiled all my plans and I spent most of the weekend in my pajamas, covered in snot, and singing Daniel Tiger songs (to myself).
Motherhood (Parenthood) involves a lot of sacrifice. Having children is not for the faint of heart, however, I firmly believe that God only gives us what we can handle. I may feel like God has given me too much but that's not the case at all. He knows how much my heart can take on. With that said, there are still days when I just want to lay in bed and do nothing. Not read, not watch tv, not play on my phone...just nothing. But alas, that is nearly impossible when you have littles. I mean I only have two kids....how do moms with more than that do it?! I don't have to look far for my answer. My mom did it. In fact she is STILL doing it. My mom has made so many sacrifices for us kids over the years. Did she every complain? Maybe? But not that I could see. Did we ruin her plans 90% of the time? Probably. But she handled everything with grace. I can only hope to be half of the mother to my boys as my mom was to me.
This unexpected plan changing? This never ending chaos? Is it worth it?
Will life inevitably get even crazier?
Without a doubt.
Will I still try and control everything in my giant planner?
Oh for sure.
But at the end of the day?
It's best to just take a deep breath and let life happen. I will enjoy the little moments and most importantly? Write in my planner with pencil.
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