I'm not a huge fan of my plans falling apart.
Allow me to illustrate.... In my mind I knew exactly how I wanted the weekend to go. A little crafting, reading, Jesus time, church, donuts, family time and a productive meeting. That was not quite what happened. This weekend was a busy one and everything I had planned went out the door. Both nights ended with chocolate chip cookies and The Mindy Project (ok so that part was perfect). I just laugh at myself sometimes. I do all this planning and dreaming and then I crumble at the first sight of things going differently then I'd pictured.
So while I wanted to spend time sketching out ideas for our little rental and diving into my other new books, I'm not ashamed to say that there was some time spent shedding tears. Can I blame the hormones? Sure. But in all honesty....I know that they were rooted deeper. I was just feeling overwhelmed, too much on my plate and too many things to keep track of.
I have big plans and dreams and I have a hard time saying "no" to new projects and adventures. However, I think this weekend was God calling me to reevaluate all the plates I have spinning in the air. My husband and family are top priority of course. Everything else just needs a good hard look. I'm currently brainstorming out something big and praying about whether God is calling me to move forward or not. But before I can even begin to put it together, I have to look at everything else.... Some will things have to go. That leaves me asking the questions, "What am I still passionate about? What would be impossible to give up? What am I willing to give up?". The need to simplify is overwhelming but in a good way.
Especially with baby number three just a few months away (?!?!) it's time to slow down. It's time to quiet my heart and just listen. So while yesterday I really wanted to end my day with a glass of wine, I settled for a root beer and enjoyed some quiet family time...
God is telling me to take a deep breath and slow down.
Which is exactly what I'm going to do.